I am content today. Just reflecting that this time last year was very different. Waiting to get released, frustrated etc. What a difference time makes! I am actually doing a good job running the store, I'm surrounded with positive people in my life (that's an absolute first) and I finally am getting my little apartment comfy and cozy. Learning that it's ok to be alone and do me. Not great with that all the time but I'm getting there.
My sons are both doing well. That makes me happy. I can't wait til they can get up here. Jay I talk to the most, probably because I stalk his ass on Snap. Jason and I talk when we are both able to but he works like I do so it's not as much as I like. I'm very proud of both boys. I did so much wrong, but in spite of that they fucking rock!
I wish I could feel the way I feel tonight all the time. I am friends with this awesome chick who is totally Zen every single minute. If they named a planet after her it would be called Planet Chill. She is my new life role model, lol. The dopest female I have ever met in a long time. Hannah is officially moved and it's kind of strange being in this apt building without her. Even though we both work like crazy, I am going to miss just knowing she is here. When we did get to spend time together, we would always wind up having the best, meaningful conversations. Every day that goes by I am getting more comfortable just being me. Finally able to relax around new friends I have made cause I feel like I am not being judged. Ok, I need to turn this thing off and go to bed. This is staying up late for me during the week. Such is my life today.
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